El Curador

Imagine this scene: A warm sunny beach. On the beach, a palapa. Under the shade, two men. One, sitting on a white picnic chair, his leg propped on a bench. The other, a younger man, wearing a bathing suit, is hovering over the seated man, chanting.

Can you tell what is going on? Even Carlos CastaƱeda would not guess this to be an Indian healing ritual, yet that was precisely what I was going through.

Earlier that morning, as I jogged along the coast of La Manzanilla, two fishermen struggled to push their boat into the water. They gladly accepted my help, and with our combined effort, the boat budged. Somehow, in that spurt of heavy pushing I twisted my left foot. I ignored the pain until the boat was in the waves, but when I tried to resume the run, I yelped in pain and stopped. I could not put any weight on the front of my foot. As I limped in agony back to the campground, a debate ensued between Realist I, and Optimist I.

'This burning pain inside is familiar,' said Realist I, 'it was the same when you broke the right foot.'

'You only twisted the foot,' Optimist I reminded soothingly, 'it may be just a sprain.'

'Really?' scoffed Realist I, 'how about your son Ofer who broke a couple of bones in his foot by "only" twisting it?'

'Well,' smiled Optimist I, 'at least you can't feel bad about your bones becoming brittle with age.'

'It really doesn't matter,' Realist I concluded, 'in both cases the treatment is the same: Elevation, Ice, and Rest.' Realist I always has the last word.

Diagnosis and method of treatment concluded, Realist began thinking about the hassles of travel with a broken foot.

'It's not that bad,' Optimist interrupted, 'Ofer ran twenty miles on his broken foot.'

'That's not very comforting,' frowned Realist 'I don't like pain.'

I was in a dark mood when I returned to the sleeping campground. I found a crooked branch and used it to aid my mobility. One by one, the other campers emerged from their RVs and offered their help, advice, or sympathy. Among the last to wake was Rodolfo.

Rodolfo and Elena, a pretty blond from Columbia, occupied the tent next to ours. He was in his forties, handsome and in good shape. The sprinkle of grey in his black hair made him appear distinguished even in a bathing suit. He was gentle and spoke softly. I liked him. He was also an apprentice Curador, or Shaman. The other day, as we leisurely passed the time under the shady palapa, he briefly talked about his life. His mother introduced him into the Peyote culture. With her, he attended the religious ceremonies conducted by shamans, and usually held in the remote mountain villages of Mexico. Peyote, a hallucinogenic plant which is legally available to the shamans is administered in the ceremony. Under the influence of Peyote, participants in the ceremony gain access to the spirit world, and can have meaningful spiritual visions. The experience provided Rodolfo with increased self-understanding and peace. He began accompanying the village Shamans on their journeys. Eventually, after consulting with the spirits, his mentor concluded that Rodolfo is ready to heal others, and he started to practice. He admits there is still much he needs to learn. For example, he is not yet ready to administer Peyote. I expressed my interest, and he agreed that upon my return to Mexico, I could join him in a Peyote ritual.

Rodolfo approached and inquired into my situation. I provided my sad tale and self-diagnosis.

"I can't fix bones," he said, "but maybe I can do something good."

"Thanks, but later, when I am done here." I said, pointing at the vegetables I was peeling for the morning salad. I was not ready for a spiritual process, especially one administered by a camping friend.

After breakfast and with the pain not subsiding, I concluded that I have nothing to loose. I walked up to his hammock and stirred him from a morning nap. We settled in the shade, me on the plastic chair. He bent over my leg and held my foot with both hands.

I suppressed a scream of pain.

"Breathe, relax," he said as he pressed my swollen foot.

I tried to follow his instruction by using my meditation training.

His strong fingers explored the pressure points along my leg. He explained something about Energy Meridians. The terms sounded familiar. As he kept working, my body slowly learned to trust his hands. The sensation was strong, sometimes painful, but always benign. I became calmer, my breathing slowed, and despite the pain in some of the pressure points, I could follow his fingers tracing the energy paths in my leg.

"The left side is your emotional, spiritual side." he explained, "Something has weakened it, and I would like to find that cause."

His hands kept going over my body. "It was not the spirits of Mexico that caused this injury." he said quietly, "You accepted our country, and it has accepted you."

I liked that conclusion.

"I am trying to feel around us." he said, his eyes scanning our surroundings, his hands not loosing touch with my leg, "I do not sense any ill will. I don't think it is someone in this campground"

At times, he would close his eyes in concentration as if waiting for an answer. "It could be someone far away," he speculated, "you will have to find the person that is angry with you and ask for forgiveness." He then proceeded to massage my neck and shoulders.

After a while, Rodolfo stopped the acupressure and sat next to my foot. His demeanor became solemn. He stopped talking, and his eyes, dark and deep, focused on some far horizon. He placed his hand on my foot and started chanting. He seemed immersed in a universe composed only of him and the space around my ailing foot. His chant was melodious and soothing. As he chanted, his voice became deeper and it drew me into a similar focus. I no longer felt awkward. The bustling campground faded, the uncomfortable chair disappeared, and it was just him and I, suspended in a bubble of time. He placed both hands over my leg without touching it, and I could feel the connection. The chanting became a wordless humming. He passed his hands above my leg with long slow strokes that started at the knee and ended at the tips of my toes. As he completed each stroke, he gathered something invisible into his hands, then brought them towards his mouth, extended his fingers, and audibly blew air over his palms.

"We Curadores are like sponges," he explained, "We take in the bad energy, but then we have to get rid of it. Some spit it out, I blow it out."

The chanting and cleansing continued for a while, then the ritual ended, and I slowly came back to the palapa. Rodolfo and I hugged, and I got up. I still could not step on my foot, but my overall feeling was radically different. A dark night, a masked Shaman shrouded in smoke, the sound of rattles and drums would have been interesting to witness, but were not essential for the special experience I just completed. I felt well. Sprained or broken, did not matter. I knew I will manage. We exchanged emails, hugged again, and promised to meet each other in the fall.


Epilogue

A couple of days later, I was well enough to drive to Puerto Vallarta where I bought a pair of crutches and discarded the old branch. I saw the broken bone in the X-Ray film, so I also purchased an orthopedic boot. On crutches, I manage fine, yet I do not understand how Ofer ran twenty miles on a broken foot.








Custodio

On reaching maturity, sea turtles return to the same Michoacan beach where they hatched.

"Hey man," a cheerful voice startled me, "why don't you sit down?" The English was fluent, with only a trace of accent.

A young man, shaved head, emerged from the shady enramada, menu in hand.

It was early morning in Playa Azul. The sun just rose over the Ocean, and I was getting ready to jog. I was not in a mood for cheery voices, yet I was intrigued. "Where did you learn your English?" I asked.

"I lived in Washington State for twenty three years," the young man answered smiling,

"What brought you here?"

Lowering his voice he answered, "A bit of trouble man, you know"

More awake now, I noticed the tattoos that extended up along his forearms and under the sleeves of his neatly pressed shirt. "You did time." I asked, acting cool.

He lowered his eyes and nodded "Yeah."

"I'll see you later," I said and started jogging along the water line. I ran slowly, enjoying the cool air, the fresh sea smell, and the sound of the breaking waves. I felt sorry for the young man trying to earn a living on a beach totally devoid of tourists. On the way back, he was waiting for me in front of the empty enramada.

"Hey man, how about it?" he pleaded.

I chose one of the tables arranged on the soft white sand, and ordered breakfast. He brought the orange juice, and I asked for his name.

"Custodio"

I asked him to sit. He told me that his age was twenty-five, and he has been living here for the last two years. I remarked that my arithmetic placed his birthplace in Washington State.

"No man," he protested, "I was born right here". "I was a little baby when my mama took me to the states."

I asked about the father.

"He died when I was just a …, you know, just a…" he struggled, "…before I was born."

I wanted to know more. At first, I had to probe to get the details, but as his story emerged, his descriptions became more expansive.

"My dad was a fisherman. They say he brought in drugs. Who knows, man? Maybe he did, maybe he didn't. Anyway… they shot him." He concluded and left to get my coffee.

He brought a cup of instant coffee, nothing else. I asked for milk; he hit his forehead, apologized, and went back to the kitchen to get it. The coffee was lukewarm.

"I grew up a good boy. Then I started getting into trouble. You know, girls. Girls, and then smoking and stuff. …First smoking, later crack, crystal, and stuff, you know. Then I started dealing. No, I didn't drop out of his school. I am not stupid. I got good grades. I figured if I get good grades at school, than I won't get in trouble with my mom, and I could do whatever, after school. I could get away with it, you see."

A shout from the kitchen indicated that my eggs were ready, and he brought the plate to my table. Another smack on the forehead, and he went back to the kitchen to get the fork and salsa.

"Thanks man," he returned smiling, "for teaching me what costumers need"

I never saw a customer in this enramada, and I could not help but assume that I might have been the first one in the two months that Custodio has been working here. He sat down, and we returned to his past.

At the age of fourteen, he was sentenced to eight years. I was incredulous. Eight years are a long time for dealing drugs.

"Well, it wasn't drugs," he answered with the same apologetic smile, "I shot somebody."

"I was in this house, you know. There were a bunch of us kids living there. One day, I discovered that all the money was gone out of my pocket. I knew it must have been this girl. She was laughing right in my face. It must have been her."

"There was this automatic gun on a shelf. I was high on drugs. I wasn't thinking straight. I don't know what I was thinking. I went crazy, man." Custodio picked up an imaginary gun and pointed it, "I took the gun, she kept laughing, I pressed the trigger. The gun went trrrrrr." He fell silent, still pressing the imaginary trigger. For a few moments, I was silent too.

Sometimes, things are not as bad as they seem. The girl survived. Custodio completed his education in jail. During this period, he was transferred a few times into the adult jails. "They couldn't handle me in Juvenile." He used the prison library to learn the law, and managed to avoid deportation.

He got up to return with more tortillas, and I utilized the interruption to ask a rhetorical question.

"Custodio," I asked, speaking as clearly as I could, "Why is it that in the States, young Mexicans are considered bad, violent, gang members, while here in Mexico, all the people I meet are kind, friendly, and gentle?"

Custodio stayed silent, thinking. Finally, he looked directly at me and said, "Racism, man. Racism."

We talked about his mother. Custodio's problems got his mother in trouble with the Immigration Service. Unlike him, she did not want to go through the hearing ordeal. She moved to another city, and dropped out of the system. Custodio does not have much contact with her.

"I am a grown up now," he says inflating his chest, "I can't just come to her door and say: Mom take me in. Can I?"

For a while, things went well. He even got married. However, the lure of easy money was too great. He started dealing again.

"If I did less than 100 grand a month, it would be a bad month." "My wife didn't know, man. She thought I inherited the money or something." "Later in court she called me a dirty Spic"

The police got him while he was making a delivery.

Custodio described the incident, his pitch noticeably higher. "They surrounded me, man. I ran, I threw the stuff away, but they got it anyway."

This time, he could not avoid deportation. His wife moved in with another man. Custodio came back to Playa Azul. He lives here with his cousins.

"Now I am staying clean, man."

I looked at him skeptically; I had a different impression.

"Well I smoke some. How did you know, man? After the shower in the morning, I smoke a joint. I have to. I have some here. I can roll you one."

I declined the offer.

"I really don't know why I am here," said Custodio looking around him, "I don't make any money. I guess I need the calm. "

Holding his head, he continued, "There is this bad side of me, you know, and there is this other side, and I am trying to put them together. It's hard. Sometimes, all of a sudden, I need to clear my head and I start running along the beach. People think I am crazy. I just need to clear my head, you know."

Eventually, I paid and left. I wished Custodio well. I hope that one day he will put himself together and accomplish his goal of becoming an accountant.

Justice

In "Beach Bungalow" I described the burglary of my trusted pickup, while it was parked by the bungalow. The story continues here.

The way to California led me back through Play Azul. The road ends at "Lucas", the most popular enramada (thatch-roofed restaurant) on the beach.

"Welcome back," Lucas the young proprietor greeted us with a hug. "Will you stay at the bungalow again? (He also owns the infamous dwelling.)

"I don't think so," I replied with a grimace "I am afraid."

"You don't have to be," he beamed proudly, "they caught the thieves"

"When?"

"Two or three days after you left"

His answer surprised me. I may believe in Karma, but not necessarily in the efficiency and speed of the Mexican Police.

"And what happened?" I asked in vengeful anticipation.

"They both got three and half years," said Lucas, "JUSTICIA"

I agree.

A visit to the State Police in the nearby town, yielded no new information. Maybe in a few days they will be able to tell us if any of our stolen items has been recovered. I am not holding my breath.

Butterflies

In memory of Yael

For me, travel is a magical adventure. I prepare a little, I plan only in broad strokes, and mostly, I let the people and events I meet along the way determine the actual itinerary. I think that is why Adventure and sometimes Magic feel welcome to join my travels.

We were on our way to the state of Michoacan to visit a Monarch Butterfly Reserve. Lonely planet names three of the four reserves, and claims that the one near the city of Zitacuaro "by far" the best location. Traversing Mexico City traffic took more time and more energy than I anticipated, and it became clear that we would not reach Zitacuaro that night. I remembered that Valle de Bravo, one of Mexico's Magic Pueblos is along our route. It was easy to substitute a large industrial city with a small colonial town. We arrived in Valle de Bravo just as the sun was setting over the mountains. The town is nestled among tall, forested mountains, and its steep cobbled streets lead down to a pretty lake. The Zocalo at the town center is an elegant example of colonial architecture. This was a charming place, and I thanked the traffic jam that brought us here.

The familiar image of the Monarch Butterfly jumped at me out of a brochure lying on the hotel's front desk. Apparently, there is a butterfly reserve near town. I was skeptical. First, we were in the State of Mexico, not in Michoacan, which is "Home of the Monarch Butterfly". Second, if Lonely Planet did not mention this place, it could not be very good. However, I felt that unlike my younger son who avoids restaurants unless they have a Zagat rating, I could afford to make mistakes. I reasoned that this could be the fourth reserve, the one not named in Lonely Planet, and that half an hour drive is worth the try. I decided to postpone our departure for Zitacuaro by one day.

We left early in the morning. As we ascended the scenic road leading to the reserve (Elevation: 3000 meters), an orange blur passed by the windshield. Then another one and then many more Monarch Butterflies were in the air. I slowed to a crawl, not wishing to harm any of the pretty creatures. A short distance further, we met the local guides and their horses. We hired a guide, declined the horses, and entered the dense forest. As we ascended the steep dusty trail, the butterflies diminished in numbers, and then disappeared. It did not make sense.

"Where are the butterflies?" I asked the guide.

"They have a different way down" she answered shortly, in a typical Indian style.

Seeing the question mark on my face, she continued.

Each day, she explained, as the sun warms the forest, the butterflies fly down from their habitat in the fir trees to a water source below. They all return up the mountain just before dark.

As we neared the rim of a narrow wooded canyon, we were confronted with a dreamlike vision. Beams of sunlight, made visible by the dust in the air, shone through the tall dense forest. Like floodlights, the sunbeams directed our attention towards the main characters of the scene. Thousands, if not millions of golden butterflies, formed a fluttering, undulating river flowing just below the canyon rim. The silent river shimmered orange and gold in the sunlight. After absorbing the view, we resumed climbing the winding trail. As we turned one corner, another miracle happened. The trail, and the butterfly river merged, and we found ourselves immersed in the three-dimensional flying river. The three of us fell silent, appreciating the wonderful encounter. I was transfixed, I stretched my arms, and large, beautiful, airy creatures flew around me. They flew close, but did not make contact, and unperturbed they continued on their way. I lost track of time. The butterflies looked so light, calm, and free. If there are spirits, I thought, that is what they would look like. I had to force myself to start walking again.

Luckily, we were first on the mountain. On our way down, we encountered a large group, some on foot some on horses. Their laughter and chatter may not have disturbed the butterflies, but it would have certainly broken my spell.

On the road home, we encountered the butterflies again. I drove only slightly faster than walking speed, extended my arm out of the window, and keeping pace with the butterflies surrounding my hand I wished them good bye and good luck in their travels.

P.S.

This encounter occurred on the morning of Tuesday, March 3.

Carnaval


Day 2

Wailing sirens stopped me from the final act of despair. I was getting ready to stop the horror. Four hours ago, I took my place on the cold metal bleachers waiting for the opening parade of the Veracruz Carnaval, and I was still waiting. I tried several remedies for my growing frustration. I walked the parade route one mile in each direction, I watched bikini-clad girls gyrating their hips on an elevated stage, and I attempted to meditate in the midst of thousands of people. All the attempts failed, and my depression deepened. I watched street vendors dispensing gallon-sized beer bottles, and maybe perversely, decided against this sort of depression medication. After the warning sounds, the crowd in the street below started moving slowly but uniformly away from the direction of the sirens. Soon, a police phalanx, carrying transparent shields, and wielding long batons, cleared the route. The parade has arrived. One uninspired float followed another, interspersed with marching bands composed of middle-aged men. Only one Samba school, featured feather plumed, half-naked dancers, and managed to introduce a bit of sex appeal into the festivities.

It was after eleven pm when the parade ended, and we hurried to the masked ball at the Cultural Center. We arrived just as the costume competition was about to begin. Formally- dressed guests sat around an elevated walkway and voted by clapping. The costumes were elaborate. It was clear that the competitors put a lot of thought and effort into the preparation. The audience eliminated my favorite contestant in the first round, but I have to admit that the winning costume was colorful and imaginative. When the Danzon band returned and dancing resumed, Adi and I got onto the dance floor. Danzon classes as well as Wednesday night practice in Oaxaca, allowed us to have fun without embarrassing ourselves. In fact, several of the guests provided us with compliments as well as dance tips. Another dancer who also drew attention was Cha-cha-cha from Guanajuato. He competed as "El Danzonero" wearing a bright red suit with matching hat and shoes. His color and flair stood out, as he masterfully guided several partners through elegant Danzon maneuvers. It did not take long for Cha-cha-cha to ask for my permission, and escort Adi to the dance floor. I watched them dance, and after concluding that although he is a better dancer, I look better; I relaxed, and accepted the invitation of an elderly senora. Around two in the morning, the band concluded, and we bade goodnight to our new acquaintances. Before departing, Cha-cha-cha made us promise to meet him at tomorrow's Danzon event.

Day 3

Torrential rain hitting the roof woke us up the next morning. Towards evening, the storm subsided, allowing the parade to proceed as scheduled. We decided to skip it. Armed with a schedule of the Carnaval activities, we went to the first public event of the evening, a Salsa band. Salsa was another subject of our dance curriculum in Oaxaca, and we happily joined the celebrating crowd in the small plaza. As happened the previous night, being obviously foreign, and displaying a passable skill at Latin dancing, we attracted several new friends. As I warmed up with the fast-paced Salsa and lavish praise, I had my epiphany. Carnaval is about dancing in the street, not about sitting in a parade.

"Hola amigos" a loud hoarse voice hailed us.

I turned to see Cha-cha-cha, weaving his way across the packed plaza, wearing the same fancy red outfit. Soon he was dancing with Adi. At the end of that dance, a short white-haired octogenarian saw his opening. He stood up from the bench where he sat with his son (sixty plus), and asked Adi for a dance. The cute couple had great fun inventing comic variations of the traditional Salsa. The son and I watched them intently. I was looking for a good camera angle, while he probably hoped that this would not end in a stroke. The dance ended safely to the thundering applause of the audience surrounding the plaza. As the band concluded the last dance, Cha-cha-cha, again, promised to meet us at the Danzon event.

Getting to the Danzon plaza required a taxi ride: Skip. Another stage featured a rock band: Skip. The Zocalo main event was already too crowded for fun (See day 1): Skip. We chose a Latin band playing in another small plaza. With his back to us, next to one of the tables surrounding the plaza, we saw Cha-cha-cha in his flaming red suit. He did not go to the Danzon. We chose a different table. He came to our table to talk, but did not follow up with an invitation to dance. Maybe he suspected we were avoiding him. For the rest of the night it was just the two of us. We danced Salsa, we danced Cumbia, we danced Son… We danced until our shirts were wet and our feet were sore. Then we went home. Carnaval is fun.

Day 1

I did not forget day 1, I just try to ignore it.

Dense fog on the highway made the four-hour trip from Oaxaca a ten-hour ordeal. I had to apologize to the hotel receptionist for being irritable. After the annoying check-in process, we walked to the Zocalo. It was after ten PM, the main event was already in progress. I could hardly see Alejandro Fernandez (A Mexican celbrity) on the giant TV screen, let alone the stage itself. We walked back to the hotel.

Day 4

The Carnaval will continue without us. We headed for the beaches of Costa Esmeralda to decompress.

Post Script

Just prior to publishing this blog, a crowd was gathering in the center of Jalapa (Home of the Jalapeno chili) to watch a mini Carnaval parade. I learned my lesson, and went instead to "Shalom", an Israeli restaurant, to try their Labane. It is almost authentic.