Petals falling, Questions rising

The Memorial Day sirens wailed as I strolled along my favorite stream. As always, even though I was not in Israel, I stood still.

I tried to visualize the friends who, fifty and sixty years ago, were fighting beside me when they died. I still remember them—vividly.

But then that phrase popped into my head: “He gave his life.”

Really? Gave it?
If someone had asked me back then, “Would you be willing to give your life?” —
F… NO.

Fortunately, no one phrased it that way. We were simply asked to risk our lives.
And at that age, risking my life was easy.

When the sirens stopped, I realized I was standing next to a wild patch of poppies. I’d been watching them for weeks—first budding, then bursting into brilliant red.

Now, their color is fading. The petals are falling.
They’re not dying, I thought. They’re just transforming into seeds.

Was that their purpose all along—creating new life?
Is it mine?

My petals, I admit, are fading too. But as far as seeding goes—mission already accomplished, with three delightful results.

I kept pondering the question of life purpose, but couldn’t come up with one that felt truly satisfying.
If any of my readers have a suggestion, I’m open. Bonus points if you leave it as a comment, not an email.

As I continued my walk, I made peace with the idea that I don’t really need a capital-P Purpose.
But I can reflect on my objectives and actions. So I came up with a few guiding principles.

They mostly lean toward the via negativa—the “don’t do dumb stuff” school of wisdom:

  • Don’t harm others.

  • Don’t harm the environment.

  • Try not to harm myself. (Easier said than done.)

  • Don’t do things I dislike. (Seriously, time’s getting short.)

On the active side, I have just two rules:

  1. Do things I enjoy.

  2. Stay able to follow rule #1.

Of course, many activities don’t fit neatly into those two. Such as, say, helping others or saving humanity.

To which I say: Sure—if it brings you joy.

Be happy.
Or at least aim for pleasantly amused.

3 comments:

  1. It seems to me that you are in a state of introspection... I like the first one.Yaron London was asked in an interview what is he still working on, His answer was : not harming anyone

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    1. Memorial day, regardless of country, tends to bring on this state. You may be surprised, but the last via negativa was inspired by something you told me.

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  2. Below, a poem that fits the mood, sent to me by a good friend:

    Invitation
    Mary Oliver

    Oh do you have time
    to linger
    for just a little while
    out of your busy
    and very important day
    for the goldfinches
    that have gathered
    in a field of thistles
    for a musical battle,
    to see who can sing
    the highest note,
    or the lowest,
    or the most expressive of mirth,
    or the most tender?
    Their strong, blunt beaks
    drink the air
    as they strive
    melodiously
    not for your sake
    and not for mine
    and not for the sake of winning
    but for sheer delight and gratitude—
    believe us, they say,
    it is a serious thing
    just to be alive
    on this fresh morning
    in the broken world.
    I beg of you,
    do not walk by
    without pausing
    to attend to this
    rather ridiculous performance.
    It could mean something.
    It could mean everything.
    It could be what Rilke meant, when he wrote:
    You must change your life.

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